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JUST READ ABOUT NEWS. OH MY FUCKING GOD. I CAN'T....I JUST CAN'T

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I know it's pathetic to be this devastated about something fandom related but how...... HOW. I kind of knew it was coming, have felt it...but to have it really happen is just...horrible. I even feel more horrible after saying what I had to say about NEWS in my last post about them, it's like the gods listened, but NO, I DON'T WANT THIS. I was just about to post about Shige's adorable Photoshigenic where he talked about Koyama, Tego, and Massu crashing his apartment w/ Massu and Tego soiling and checking out his bedroom and opening all Shige's expensive champagne bottles (to Shige's horror) and Koyama terrorizing his refrigerator and Tego vandalizing his prized lamp with his signature, the little brat (it's like a fanfic only it's real omigod I love them so much it hurts) but then it's kind of apt for the announcement, because really, they're the ones who're sticking around. THEN IT HITS ME, THEY MIGHT'VE BEEN TALKING ABOUT THE BREAK UP THAT NIGHT, SIPPING BUBBLIES AND COMFORTING/ENCOURAGING THEMSELVES AND HURTING AND HOPING. FUCK.

I understand Ryo, having two groups is not really ideal. But Pi? Of course, from the start, Pi could've always had a solo career. But right now, to me, it feels like abandonment. HE'S PI. I love you Pi, but it really just fucking stings, right now, because you lied. It's inevitable blahblahblah I KNOW but I'm still so so so heartbroken. If I have to admit to something, it's to the fact that they never really gelled together as well as I would've hoped (because you know, I'm spoiled by the natural, glittering ease of Arashi's bond and to me NEWS was always a little awkward )... there was always a Pi/Ryo faction then the other four aka the rest...but they were all reasonably good friends (aside from Koyashige who are just JOINED AT THE HIP and are the bestest best friends I've ever seen) and I saw that and they had amazing songs and held amazing concerts and just....I can't bear the thought of never seeing the six of them together again, as a group, because I fell for them and have always cheered them on, always. I also can't bear the thought of never hearing their beautiful harmony in a new song (because omigod I love their songs so so so so so so much, unlike other Johnny's acts it's actually their music that I love I know that's silly but their discography just kicks ass and speaks to me and just... how will a NEWS song be a NEWS song without Pi and Ryo's voices???) How how how? What a fucking bludgeon. I know it's ridiculous but I love their songs that much. I CAN'T I CAN'T I CAN'T I CAN'T I CAN'T I CAN'T AND JUST EVERYTHING, OH GOD, NEWS, WHY DO YOU ALWAYS BREAK MY HEART

I was just daydreaming about a new concert tour the other day, too, how dare you, subconscious, hurting me this way

At least they left us with the awesome that is their LIVE album, what is perfection, only now, it'll only make me so sad, so sad, that it's hard to imagine. Crying while listening to Share right now. Oh god

My best wishes for Pi and Ryo (because god knows I love them too) but god, my heart goes out to the now four member NEWS. Koyama, Shige, Tego, and Massu... DO YOUR BEST AND BELIEVE AND WORK HARD AND BE STRONG AND I LOVE YOU AND GOD, DON'T DROP OFF FROM THE FACE OF THE PLANET PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE AND BE HAPPY AND PROUD AND I KNOW THAT THE FOUR OF YOU HAVE AWESOME CHEMISTRY (HELLO, SOUKON) SO CAPITALIZE ON THAT AND JUST....DO IT AND SURVIVE, K???????

AND BEING TOTALLY BIASED, BUT SHINE, SHIGE, SHINE

OKAY BYE I'LL GO LICK MY WOUNDS RIGHT ABOUT NOW I'M SORRY IF YOU DIDN'T CARE FOR THAT UGLY EMOTIONAL RANT BUT SERIOUSLY, SOMEBODY HUG ME ~~ARASHI DON'T YOU EVER DO THIS TO ME I WON'T SURVIVE~~

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Within the different winds that passes
Why did we meet
If we can see the same stars now
We're just fine with that

To be able to meet with you, and the crying and laughing expressions
Are all my treasures, let's continue walking from now on

:'(

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ew so the news is official now ? this is so sad cause NewS has the only JE music i consider .... actually good. everything else i just tolerate cause i liek the people. ... but like all NewS songs are my JAMS.

Yup, as official as it can get. :( IKR, THEIR MUSIC IS JUST..... *cries in a corner*

/extra-sad at seeing a smiley Massu

idk maybe this is a good thing for me/ TRYING TO STAY POSITIVE OKAY T_T. but i can't stand yamapis voice and was forever pissed he got more lines than tego in every song despite tego being an amazing vocalist. so at least now tego will get to show off his stuff? maybe? unless... johnny still refuses to acknowlegs hes one of the only members in JE that can sing rly well -_-; idgi.

also, i always could never get as attached to news despite loving their music more than any other band. reason was they didn't feel close at all. i was always convinced that yamapi, ryo, and tego secretly hated each other.... which is why i stopped fangirling them because following too closely was making me depressed D: funny they are all far away from one another now D: sorry just a odd thought i just had D:

but uhg i hate K8, not the members.. but musically.. and i love ryos voice.. so i think im most upset about that D: i have tried so hard to listen to K8 and i just cant D:

man im just depressed. sorry D: bitchy ranting.

I'm all for Tego showing off more of his pipes (because he has a beautiful voice that he just needs to reign in a little bit more for it to be just PERFECT) but I can't say that I can't stand Pi's voice. IDK, for me, Pi's voice = NEWS. He's nasal and definitely not among the roster of the better singer in the group but I've always been fond of his voice, probably because it's been stamped into my mind that it's...NEWS, cos he always has so many lines in songs. But yeah, well, I'll guess I just have to deal :(

Oh, I get you on that account though. They always had an air of awkwardness around each other (probably except for when it's only the four interacting; prophetically enough, they're the ones that are left) and liking them is not the free-fall that it is with other groups.

I AGREE WITH YOU SO MUCH RE K8. I love the members, they're so hilarious and unintentionally sweet, but oh god, I can't get into their songs. MEH. I'M WITH YOU ABOUT BEING UPSET ABOUT LOSING RYO'S VOICE IN NEWS. It's such a loss, such a big loss. I can't yet imagine NEWS songs without Ryo's woodsy, languid vocals.

/sobbing forever

No worries, I'm feeling depressed as well and have so many FEELINGS about this whole shebang :((((

for me ryos voice is what = news. i... idk yamapi always irked me. maybe because i didn't like him much as a person either. (i'm saying this because when i disliked matsujun way back in like 2005 i couldn't stand his nasaly voice but after i fell head over in love with him from watching their shows i came to adore his... horribly nasal.. singing... and hes probably my favorite now LOL XD)

i do like yamapis solo stuff tho. SO HAY MORE POSITIVE THINKING. i like his solo stuff cause idk he sounds really cool autotuned :/ lol idk if thats a compliment XD

yea i agree. if it is just ryo, massu, koyama, shige its okay. pi, massu, koyama, shige its okay. add a tego to one or the other.. i just felt... CLASHING. unless, as you, said with just tego,massu, koyama, shige it = peaceful. who knows, maybe i will like the quartet better fangirling wise? since i wont have that tension pulling at me making me feel stressed.

IDK IM SO DEPRESSED ATM D: /whines

yes yes yes omg the members of K8 are FABULOUS ♥ and tbh i do like ryo better when he is with them, cause i.. idk i swear to god he rly doesn't like pi and tego much and... ryo isnt the most uh... "IM GOING TO PRETEND I LIKE YOU" KINDA GUY NAW'SAYING?? so if theres any tension with him it really shows ten fold... D: but when i watch K8 stuff i find myself jkhsdjkfdjkh RYO ♥ hes so much cuter and "family" with them. (more positive thinking!?)

uhg idk im still depressed as fuck though D: but in a way all these thoughts are making me think maybe it is better...

yea im glad you understand. when i reread my comment i was worried you'd get mad at me D: lol

Edited 2011-10-08 22:52 (UTC)

Sidestepping the whole Pi thing because he's always irked you and right now I'm in a place where I've always liked him and felt misled, so yeah, lol. But I have to admit that as much as I love Pi's voice in NEWS *sniff*, I love Pi's solo stuff too, ike the autotuned stuff. Listened way too many times to SUPERBAD, SUPERGOOD AND ACTUALLY ENJOYED IT LOL WHAT IS THIS OUR TASTES INTERSECT IN AN UNFORTUNATE...INTERSECTION, AS OTHER MIGHT SEE IT, THEM HATERSSSS

BUT OMFG CAN I JUST SAY, MATSUJUN FOREVER. WHAT IS LIFE. He is responsible for me being in this fandom (JE in general) and there's a damn good reason why. UGH MATSUJUN WILL HEAL MY ♥

(How about a reprieve from all this sad NEWS stuff? And yes, I totally uploaded this gif just for you)

like/like? :Ddd

How interesting though, I've never felt ill vibes between Tego and Ryo. When did you see that? Tego even said recently that Ryo's his most-respected senior. But then again, Ryo rarely looked happy to be in/with NEWS, period. Not that I hate him for it, it's just his attitude (like you said), and if you compare it to how ihe is with K8, then yeah, Ryo looks downright unfriendly when he's with NEWS. But I'm the same with you though I love Ryo when he's with K8, HE JUST EMITS SOMETHING DIFFERENT, THE VIBE IS LIGHTER

Anyway, I have high hopes for the new NEWS/quartet. And you know what, fangirling wise, I bet you'll like them better. Have you watched Soukon? DO IT

PS: I like your positive thinking lol

ill help you sidestep. PARTY DON'T STOP P P PARTY DON'T STOP LICK HIM LIKE A MAYOOONAIIISEEEEE!~

I AGREE MATSUJUN FOREVER HOW DID I EVER HATE HIM!? (well i know why.. he has a cold mean exterior when you know nothing about arashi, and i didn't start watching their shows till around 2007) lol... oh how i was wrong hjgfjd hes so flawless and perfect and jhgsdkgfkjdh where can i get one? do you know? please? HES SO AMAZING AND I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM EVEN THE CATERPILLARS, AS AIBA PUT IT, LIVING ON HIS FACE ♥

but JE.... NewS is actually responsible for me getting into JE.... 'Akaku Moyuru Taiyou' and 'Kibou ~YELL~' to be specific so... fml D: jhsdgdghl

okay enough enough i agree. lets see.

LIKE YES LIKE MUCH YES.

hmm idk i cant remember specific shows.. well i was most hard core around 2007-2008? so maybe it was stuff released around then..? IDK. sorry XD but it was more that tego seemed... guarded and tensed up around ryo? which made me tense up and stress D: it wasn't really "tego doesn't like ryo" but more.. idk a weird feeling.. like "ryo was pissed he was with tego which made tego feel worried and stressed" and IM BULLSHITTING STUFF HERE TO MAKE MY POINT BUT SOMETHING LIKE THAT OKAY (i mean, i'm not saying they actually did feel that way but... those feelings were... similar to the ones i got while watching them? it just felt... awkward?) D: ....idk i could just be crazy.. though i notice that once i see something negative in someone/something, it sadly amplifies (like with sungmin of super junior, i started to feel he was fake and it has gotten to a point where i cant even see his good side anymore and... D:) so it may just be that part of me overworking? most of the reason for why i pulled out of the fandom was with yamapi though. (and actually probably due to the 'sungmin' thing i just mentioned.)

No i havent! Links!?

and since i went all emo!shit againg have more uh... cute!

Bonus because i LOVE THIS GIF and im biased.

Life is a bit better now, right?

YES LIFE IS SO MUCH BETTER YOU DON'T KNOW. OHMY SO MUCH YOUNG JUN! UGH. AND BUBBLES ♥ (I LOVE THE CATERPILLARS ON HIS FACE, SO GODDAMN SEXY!) And who is that Korean boy looking silly and cute?

Ah, well I get that thing about disliking someone for some vague thing or another then having it compounded as time goes by. I think Kame's the one that I have that feeling with. There's nothing specific that I can point out that makes me dislike him but IDK, I just, don't. And perhaps the whole Ryo thing was just the case of the remaining 4 NEWS members never getting over their intimidation of him, despite all those years? There's always been a barrier, methinks D:

Musically, NEWS was what got me into JE so I feel you babe, I feel you. I was just so charmed by 'Cherish'. That is still one of my most favorite songs EVER and I don't think I can handle watching the PV (remember the pink gloves and their dance? *sniff*) without sobbing like an idiot because OMG LOOK AT HOW MANY THEY USED TO BE JFDASJFLAJFALKJFD :(

I'll just stare forever at this Koyashige hug

And this other cute stuff.

I CAN'T WITH THE CUTENESS, OF THIS TOMA/AIBA HUG <3

GO WATCH SOUKON, NOW! http://newsnexexpress.livejournal.com/?skip=10&tag=soukon
(You do know it's a running show, yes? Hihi :D Cos you might get surprised)

That cute and silly looking Korean boy is my ultimate bias Eunhyuk. He is a member of Super Junior and I have no words to express my love for him I just LOVE HIM SO MUCH jkasdhfkhsdkghldg /foams at mouth.

I think this calls for a spam. Yes. Yes it does. (oh, I am so biased.)

..... I never noticed how biased my gif folder was until today....

Yea, the remaining 4 are all pretty lax and a few timid, so it makes sense Ryo would be hard to deal with for some. Lol XD I love Ryo, but pretty sure if I knew him in real life I'd be in tears constantly lmfao. ITS OKAY RYO. I KNOW UR A GOOD PERSON DEEP IN UR HEART.

Yea, because NewS is just so WONDERFUL musically. I even got my Korean friend into them when she home stayed with me in 2009. I had her singing and dancing to Koi no ABO and fangirling over Ryo, and she's one of the Koreans that has been brainwashed into hating Japan, so I think that is quite the feat. (She isn’t as anti Japan now either, because of it!)

But Cherish. Oh god. The gloves. T_T THE DANCE. I can't listen to that song without doing the dance. T_T

THAT KOYASHIGE HUG NEEDS TO BE ADMITTED INTO MY BEST AND SWEETEST GIFS IN THE WORLD ARCHIVE OMG MY HEART. MY HEART.

And omg that Toma Aiba hug sghkdfgdkfh it always kinda freaks me out when JE looks like babies compared to Arashi though LMFAO. Jhsdgjdfjh BUT SO CUTE.

I was going to included Jun spam as well but I think i will leave that for later things this comment will probably kill your pc already D: lol

YAY ONGOING SHOWS! I WILL WATCH ANYTHINGGGGGG~ lol /addicted to variety.

HAHAHAHA OMFG THAT IS A HUGE WALL OF GIFS.

Whoever this Eunhyuk guy is, he seems adorbs and hilarious, and it's very cheering. I like the dancing gifs ♥_____♥ AND WHY IS HE EATING (CHERRIES?) OFF THE FLOOR LOL ~~Must not get sucked in, must not get sucked in haha~~

YES THAT KOYASHIGE HUG GIF GETS ME ALL THE TIME!

Me too I'm so hooked on variety! Oh and by 'running' I meant literally running...as in they do marathons and run around bridges/staircases in Tokyo and shit hahaha :DDD

He is everything you mentioned and more T_T

YOU LIKE THE DANCING HYUK, AYE? ;D ;D ;D /shamelss

Okay..... now I am just being mean. BUT I THINK YOU ARE THOROUGHLY DISTRACTED FROM THE ISSUES ORIGINALLY AT HAND SO... success? lmfao. yes. im justifying it.

JUN GIF TO MAKE UP FOR IT.

It is just so precious omg T_T ♥

LOL SRSLY? Ahahahah SO WIRED but it sounds interesting! But still I'm glad its more than one episode XD XD lol I may try and watch it today while taking care of my room D: I need something to keep me busy why I sit here and dry things off D:

I just read your LJ entry about your room flooding. Ugh, stress. Hope it gets fixed soon, seriously.

AND YES, YOU HAVE DISTRACTED ME THOROUGHLY. AND YOU ARE MEAN.

♥ HOLY MOTHER....ABS. Dammit. *closes eyes*

You are forgiven with that Jun gif though! lol :D :D :D

It hurts so much, and I actually feel really numb about it myself. Like I don't know how to react. :( They were my first, and will always be my ultimate favourite.

I feel you, girl. :( I'll be supportive of the new NEWS (sob) as ever, but it just stings to think about never seeing the 6 of them together as a group again, oh god. IDK how I'll listen to their songs without feeling sad.

*huggles you with much love*

;~~~~~~~~~~~; hearts

Thanks babe. <3

/CLINGSSSSSSSSS

Forever supporting everyone.

Wish I had a Sho to hug me like that huhuhuhu

can i get one as well ;D?

Will a Jun massage suffice?

I can be down with that? would you care for some creeper ninos?

/glomps on creeper Nino

Not sure if you're a fan of them, but you know, Nakai's pretty damn adorable.

I like them. (... i like everything..) ALSO! random fact!? Nakai has the same birthday as me~~ XD

but i raise you one matusjun with animal.

/HUGS~
i've went through a 'break-up' like this before, though got to admit this didnt hurt as much as the previous one but yea it still hurts, seeing that i was actually crazy over them for a period of time around 2008 and yea im glad their latest releases were near to perfection so at least it feels that they left something good as 6.

and... i'm being biased too :P i might be watching NEWS from now on, and yes i want to see how shige's gonna shine:)

Which breakup?

Sigh this is so sad, really. /hugs back

I can't wait for Shige to step out of the shadows... that, I'm looking forward to.

i'm not sure whether you know but it's tohoshinki~~~~ i really supported them then they got split and sigh~ dramas just keep happening, even now.

at least now we know that NEWS most probably gonna have things coming out soon!!! i'm looking forward to that too:)/weak attempt at cheering up>.

Ah, Tohoshinki! I had a friend who was a big fan of theirs too and I remember her being downcast about all of that. Sigh.

I can't wait for them to release stuff. THEY BETTER RELEASE STUFF. D:

I'm mostly just pissed at Pi for saying "Just wait for us, we'll never betray you" because what what what is that bullshit when hemust have known already at that point that something was going to happen, one way or another. And one hand, I get Ryo, because managing two groups are not supposed to be easy, but it already worked for eight years, so my theory is that when Pi said "fuck it" he kind of went along.

I wasn't that upset yesterday, but now I'm really sad about it.

And I'm with you on the delusional plane of existence: SHINE, SHIGE, GODDAMIT SHINE

...My favourite members are still in, that has to count for something.

Yeah, what was up with those big words anyway. I know people change all their minds all the time but something tells me too that it's something he's been mulling over for quite awhile. I've always liked Pi, somehow, but this just really throws me off and thus, the heartbreak. As for Ryo, I get what you mean. And at least he was always open about his situation, he's talked about how he's thought of dropping one group for the other. Being in two groups is hell, schedule-wise, anyway. But yeah. He just totally got on board with Pi because it's an easy out.

YES SHIGE NEEDS TO SHINE AND PROPAGATE THE LEGIT-NESS THAT IS THE KATO KINGDOM

...My favourite members are still in, that has to count for something.
That's true. I can't wait for how they'll deal with just being four. I hope they don't crack under the pressure or something. They're such great guys, I want them to succeed so bad :3

I am gonna miss Ryo and Pi a lot! The first thing I thought of when I saw this news about NEWS (...lol) was "and then there were four" because THEY HAVE HAD SO MANY LOSSES.

I feel hurt right now but I'll miss Ryo and Pi in NEWS, though. ~~Even if NEWS for them was something they could abandon just like that~~. Being a NEWS fan is setting yourself up for so much heartache. Wish I jumped ship a long time ago but I hate that I have ~special~ feelings for them *sniff*

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